I also woke up unable to breathe through my nose, and with a sore throat. But this was no matter- I was planning to continue my day as planned. I didn't have the luxury of being sick today.
I had everything that I needed for the day, I was leaving on time, and it was all going so smoothly!
Until I noticed frost on the back windshield of my car...which was strange since none of the other cars had any frost. It was especially strange when the frost began cracking and pieces of my window began to fall apart. On closer examination, the "frost" was actually my window shattered in a thousand little pieces. And a tiny hole in the corner led me to believe that someone had shot a bb gun, or something, at my back window.
Suddenly, my carefully planned day was out of control. I had no way to get where I needed to go (which happened to be Lancaster) and ended up being dependent on others to get around.
Isn't it amazing, and unfortunate, how much I rely on my car? And how much I rely on being able to plan and control the various aspects of my life?
I know the truth is that, ultimately, my life is not in my control. I can plan out each moment of each day of the next 10 years. But it will not turn out the way I plan. There are many other factors- other people's choices, good and bad. And you know, that little thing called God's will. The little thing that I will probably spend my life trying to figure out and never scratch the surface.
So why not just surrender? Why not trust?
I ended up spending the day doing needed work, taking it easy and trying to get better, and dealing with the car stuff. Not all I'd hoped for, but maybe where I needed to be.
